Monday, January 05, 2009

tardy detention

Timing in life really is everything. I remember when I was an adolescent telling my dad that I didn't want to have any plans in life, that having plans breeds disappointment, I was going to go through life letting life happen and flying by the seat of my pants. I think he might have told me that I was being stupid, everybody needed some kind of plan or direction. But I think the thirteen year old me knew something, even back then...you can have all of the plans and direction in the world but timing is EVERYTHING. My timing, quite frankly, sucks. Most likely because I'm incredibly impatient. I'm trying to work through the whole "I want what I want and I want it now" thing that I usually have going on, realizing that that attitude is often what brings me the biggest challenges and the greatest suffering. But learning patience is like learning to swim in thickening concrete sometimes.